That Weird Feeling

Late again, sorry! I'm trying very hard to get the last of the extra work completed, and it's eating up all my time. I'm almost done, though, and I'll be so glad to be so close to the finish line. Almost. Almost.

There isn't a whole lot else going on in my life at present. I am still training martial arts, and it has been a godsend. It is a crazy time in the world right now, and I find myself quicker and quicker to anger, and the ever-present threat of a depressive spiral hovers closer and closer (there have been several smaller ones, but luckily not like the months-long awfulness I had earlier in the year). Martial arts training has been a blessing in helping me regulate my emotions.

I still want to run away to a little cottage in the woods and have the only proof of my existence be a new published book every so often. That would be ideal.

I'm also finding myself struck with impatience regarding my writing career. It's different this time. It's not the self-pitying frustration that it has been in the past (though it does sometimes slide into that... you know, every so often). It's hard to explain, really. I'm still annoyed at it, to be honest. Patience is not a virtue of mine, and I do wish I could coast through life with the kind of monk-like grace I see in others. I can't do it. I feel like I'm constantly chaffing at the bit.

I am currently sitting at my computer at work, feeling so impatient and constrained that I could honestly go for a long run, or spend an hour or so at a heavy bag (and probably should if just to work through whatever the hell is happening right now. Wish I wasn't stuck at my desk. Which is part of the problem).

Still, as impatient as I am, I've been quiet on the writing front... Being as distracted as I am by the extra work I've still not completed. But I have returned to blogging with Black Gate Magazine, with some success. So I am inching back to myself. With luck, by the month's end, I'll have my mind and time back for my own projects. Until then, wish me luck.

Slán go foill!